Posted by: annabanana210 | December 7, 2010

Bittersweet dark Tuesdays

I’m not a huge fan of December.  I feel as though it gets dark at 3pm and stays that way until March sometime.  It got a little darker earlier today as it was announced that Elizabeth Edwards had passed away.  That feeling of dread landed in my stomach like rotten-ass McDonald’s french fries (since they don’t biodegrade), and I had a moment of silence for Mrs. Edwards and her three children.  She seemed like she was a woman who was in the business of doing things rather than just talking about them.  She was in the business of getting things done.  And that’s a quality I admire in anyone.

Meanwhile, in viral cyberland (aka Facebook), the game of the day was the “number” game.  So let’s say Annie B (because we love her best), inboxes me the number 36.  I then post #36 as my status and a comment regarding my “true” feelings about her follows. **Anyone who knows me well enough to read this blog has to know I’m rolling my eyes right now**.  If the good Lord allows it, I’ll be 33 in February.  I’m pretty sure at this point in my life that I don’t need a secret number to tell anyone how whack they are  **smiles**. Subsequently, I don’t need a secret number to tell someone I had a crush on them in second grade.  Those two losers both know I had a crush on them in the second grade, and everyone that I don’t like already knows that I don’t like them.  The people that I love should know I love them (if they listen), and anyone that’s confused about where they fall should just ask. As I’m typing this, I can only think of one person that should even be confused about that…

What’s most polarizing about life to me is the fact that at one point on this day you can be here among the “living”, and in the next, you are a part of history.  Time doesn’t stop when you depart this world, the universe continues to move along as it always has; the music keeps’ve just left the party.  “When you’ve seen beyond yourself than you may find peace of mind is waiting there, And the time will come when you see we’re all one and life flows on within you and without you,”(Harrison). For the longest time, it was hard for me to not be offended by that statement.  Now it brings me comfort, knowing that I will one day go on through everyone and everything else.

So, I’m challenging you to stop talking about what you’re gonna do, and get in the business of doing it. And if there’s someone in your life that doesn’t know exactly how you feel about them, tell them.  You’d be surprised to know just how much we all assume…



  1. great thought provoking post! is there any way for me to repost it on facebook…i think it is worthy of many many reads!

    • I believe you can visit the blog and link it to your facebook :), glad that it made you think!!

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